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Monday, February 27, 2012

See ya....for now

It's always interesting what the Lord says to us, isn't it?  For quite a while now, I've been praying that I could be obedient to His calling and to follow Him in a way that brings glory to Him.  I've also been feeling that, for a while now, He's been asking me to take a break from the blog. 

In a manner that is typical of me, I continue to wonder if I'm hearing Him.  Whether I'm really hearing what I think He's saying.  Am I understanding what He's saying to me.  Etc., etc., etc.  But the bottom line is, it doesn't really matter if it makes sense to me.  It makes sense to God and He's asking me to put my money where my mouth is and to coin a popular phrase, "just do it".  Who am I to question God?

Sunday's sermon kinda sealed the deal, so to speak.  Our ass't. pastor was talking about how often our pride gets in the way of our focusing on God.  He used himself as an example and how for the last 32 years, he had been known by his nickname (Chooch).  Not that it was bad, but that it was a way that he really felt unique (not many Choochs running around) and how it was such a part of his identity.  Our pastor had been feeling that the Lord was calling him to, in a sense, grow-up and leave the nickname behind, but of course this was extremely hard for him, because, at the end of the day, he liked being called by his nickname.  As our pastor continued to feel the gentle pressure of the Lord working on him, he realized that his prideful desire to hold so tightly to something, was perhaps exactly what the Lord wanted him to release.  And so he did.

Ohh that desire to hold on tightly to something, only to have the Lord gently pry it from our hands.  I know this lesson well, and yet I still fight it...and have to keep re-learning it.  So, all that being said, I'm going to say, "see ya...for now".  That's not to say that I won't be back, or drop in now and then, but I'm going to try and listen, and thereby honor God. 


Kimberly said...

E~ I applaud your honesty and will be praying that this decision will bear the most beautiful fruit in your life. But... I will miss your updates of life with the C.N.!! These days I am lurker and not a poster, but I love keeping up with our travel group and other friends through blogging. If and when you return, I'll be around!


Debbie Sauer said...

I will miss you. Blessings

julie said...

I, too, will miss updates on "The Noodle". I have followed along since Journey To Me. We traveled to China in August to bring home our sweet daughter. Your story was one of those that inspired us to adopt. Take Care.